i'm not exactly leaving the hobby, i just like to be misleading; however, i won't be posting to this lj any more. since i don't have any money to be actively collecting or even purchasing sweet new outfits for my boys, and since savannah is too humid for me to even practice face-ups and share my progress, i'm not writing about bjds often enough to warrant a separate journal.

i'll have my other lj, its_prurience
i added every one on my f-list from this journal, to the one i actually post too. it's me rambling about life, shit horror films, etc. but i'll be including some dollery here and there, and post those entries on a doll filter. so, erm, please add me back! or not. haha. your call.

it's been a hoot doll eljay :D

sometimes i don't think i post here often enough to warrant a separate doll journal. i should just filter any doll posts through my main lj. i think i may start doing that... hrmmm....

can any one tell that i don't feel like working any more?
 

... maybe not. chrom's face hasn't really won me over, and if i want his furry old man ears (hehehe) then i'd have to accept the rest of the head. i like his lips- they seem very hot korean male to me so i kind of wish his other features were more korean. you might say, well you can mod the head. and to that i say no. i'm still freaked out about sending heads off for faceups, let alone to be carved up and shaved down. shiver me timbers.

and i'm bummed that i can't do the whole, wait and look at owner pics first thing. it could just be soom's faceup, and someone else's chrom will come along with a faceup that will make me see his potential, and by that time, his price on the second hand market will have shot up. woe.

plus, he's missing a tail ;__;
i really wanted him to have a bushy wolfy tail for some stupid reason. i mean, skandar doesn't have a tail.

soom, come on. don't do this to me. don't make me want one after all of this time!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

oh christ if he's lycan it's all over. my resolve may come down.

anyone who knows me well, knows that i push for equal opportunity, exposure, and prevalence in pop culture for the werewolf.
so goddamned under appreciated... so much so i may want to take one in, in doll form.

i want a brown headed boy with blue eyes who i will name "mamut" meaning mammoth in some languages.

i hate the black wig i bought for ally. it's a long tangled mess and it's constant state is nightmare. i'm not sure if it's the wig, or if it's my lack of hair knowledge. my hair is not long and straight, it's the antithesis of that- i have medium length dreads, and i have them for a reason, because i don't do hair.
so how do i care for this wig? and at what point should i toss it out? i wouldn't even resell it at this point.
i want to get a volks long wig that was eyeing before I went the second hand route, but I'm worried about having the same issues...

i'm a little scared by dollmore's new doll, dahlia. it's like a humungous baby doll, and while i think she's well sculpted and it's an innovative concept for her height, i just don't get her appeal at all. i can only imagine crazy women who want a young child again being into her, like the crazies who are into reborns and want to be mommies again. ugh. gives me the creeps. i do not ever want to see one in person. i'd run for the hills.

not buying doll stuff is going pretty well. though i can't say there's anything i have to have for any of my boys. is it just me, but are the new dolls more overwhelming than inspiring? it amazes me how many new dolls and heads have come out and none of them are stunning just, mediocre at best (soom MDs included). come one doll artists, step up the game! i miss bitching about dolls i can't afford at the moment. haha
 

i need to unsubscribe to that dolpa chat thread on doa. every fucking post and update in my email inbox is like salt on an aching wound. oh dolpas! why can't i come to thee? why can't my awesome job pay me more moniessssss?

now that i got that bit of whining out of my system...

i miss taking my dolls out. when i lived in baltimore, i'd take klaus out probably every weekend. which sounds extremely excessive and maybe a little crazy, but i'm not into the collecting side of the hobby as much as i'm into the playing. there are a couple of places that i'd like to take them in savannah, but i don't and i think it's because i'd rather not cause a stir over it with adam. he's doesn't really care for them unless he can play tricks on them (wrapping klaus in the fake fur part of my jacket, taking klaus' glasses and putting them on skandar, putting a lolipop is ally's hand so he can look gayer, that sort of thing) and i rather not get in an argument over bringing them when we go to nifty places. i've wanted to bring them to trips to florida for the longest time, but i always feel like he'll spoil all the fun rather than just let me do my thing.

i think my boys deserve some fresh air every once in a while. i just haven't been motivated to let them see daylight.

klaus may become my "practice" head by default. i've been thinking about re-doing his faceup... um, again. i miss his darker faceup and i want to play at doing something a bit goth and romantic without defaulting to black and eyebrows that look as if they've been penciled in. i still want it to be natural and warm. i could just want to do another faceup, and klaus drew the shortest straw and now he's the unlucky one to get maimed by me. i wish i was good enough to take comissions, then i'd leave klaus alone and get this wacky desire out of me through someone else's head.

maybe i should have taken advantage of this leekeworld $50 head event thingamajig.

and why is soom still releasing the MDs? i'm in agony over here.

i need to make icons for skandar and ally :)
 

or as i like to call it, the big let down.

not going this year, which BLOWS. i've really enjoyed making this event an annual definite. it's a great time hanging out in nyc, catching up with rikki since i don't see my friends back at home but once or twice a year it seems, and enjoying volks' generosity, talent, and curious taste in music during the dinner... :/

why am i not going? because while i finally have a payment plan i can handle for my private student loans, this will only last for three months. come july, they're going to need a $700+ good faith payment from me. so instead of saving up for dolpa, i'll be saving up to make that payment. so exciting i know.

it makes me want to vomit.

i'm not counting on getting a second job. i need to save what i can and not rely on a possible source of income. that doesn't mean i'm still not looking. in the end, i guess there's a slim chance i may be able to go, but right now, it ain't happenin' but maybe i could go to the one in LA instead- if it's an actual physical event this year XD

 

white people irvin is available via lottery :3

i really like white people irvin. when i saw him at dolpa nyc last year, i felt like we'd been given the short end of the stick. haha. i wish i could enter the lottery for him. and by the by, he has his own name- kaelin. heh, it makes me think of kylie... kylie minogue. oh man, now i really want one, so i can name him kylie minogue. hahaha.

i need to make more money. booo on my job. boooo
just kidding :D

sorry, i've been spamming the interweb with my joy and excitement:
i just bought my ticket to go see depeche mode!!!

that is all.
:D

my cliffe is in a box, labeled and ready to go to Spain of all places. and it's been like any other sale. so i guess that means i'm making the right choice selling him. no guilt at all. but with the announcement of a new ninodoll ordering period and head, i had a moment when a frowned a little over my sales page for um.pyo. but i'm still letting him go.

the new ninodoll head is pretty cute.

i found what seems to be an older SD13 body on Y!J auctions for so cheap last night. it made me really miss my account with crescent shop and having bidding wars at 3am. (those were the days of riches.)
i want to start using crescent shop again, but i'm not sure if i should after they almost closed my account because i hadn't paid for an auction in almost a year. yeah, that fiasco was full of shame. i did eventually pay them off, but i'm sure they still have records of that nonsense. maybe i should move onto another shopping service...?
i started working on my lolita wardrobe again, so a shopping service will come in handy... and when i'm finally able to get my yugiri it will come in handy as well because it seems as if i only come across default yugiris in the japanese second hand market, and i want a default yugiri surprisingly enough. the faceup, eyes, hair. i have no desire to change what he looks like.

soooo, shopping services people. what do you use or reccommend? inquiring minds want to know ;)

 

spring cleaning came early in defiance of the chilling wind that was blowing today. i never realised that i had so much i needed to get rid of.
and yes, the questionable heads are on the chopping block.

i was going to make a sales post here first, but i didn't want to do the same thing twice. if any one wants anything, it's all on DoA. if you know any one who's looking for what i've got, send them on over! i don't really need the money (though my private student loan situation says otherwise), i just want it gone gone gone.

dolls/doll parts
ninodoll um.pyo, sard legs and feet

eyes
soom 20mm spotted gray, soom 18mm brown, soom 16mm baby blue eclispe, dollmore 16mm red cat eye (acrylic)

clothes
sd/sd13 girl underoos

accessories
volks sd hooks set



 

when i first got into this hobby, i had trouble wrapping my head around selling your dolls. they were so expensive that i figured you'd do your research and make smart purchases. i was certain that i'd never sell any of my own because i'd only buy the ones i loved and just had to have.
so now i feel extremely guilty for thinking about selling two of my heads.

um.pyo- although he's still my favorite ninodoll head, the character i had in mind for him just doesn't fit in with the other boys anymore. i tried to see how i could make him work, but i'm having trouble. i've thought of a few stories, but they don't seem to stick.
cliffe- again, i really like this boy, my favorite leekeworld l so far, but i think i'd rather concentrate on (and spoil) the core group of guys. his character is totally unrelated.

honestly, i've been thinking about selling my heads for a while, but at first, it was just because I needed some extra money to help pay down my credit card. surprisingly i have been able to talk myself out of selling my school c. that cute wittle face and his lips get me every time i take him out to question why i bought him. (the answer to that question is lame: i just wanted a volks doll, and i'll have one whenever the hell i get a sd10 body...). this question over who to sell got me thinking about what dolls do i really want, who do i really want to spend time spending money on. i never wanted to have a lot of dolls then have them all in sock dresses. i want to be able to take care of them.

i'm still uncertain over my ump.pyo and my cliffe. but i think they may be the start to my yugiri fund. XD

i am tired of working, can you tell? it's almost five o'clock...

 

amber is still on sale...

adam said that my poor ally looks like a child cancer patient.
and while i was offended, i was saddened because it's true. where the hell is that wig i bought at the end of january?! my last doll related purchases have arrived within days of me buying them, so i'm not used to this. i'm getting irritated. i'm also waiting for shoes. which i also ordered at the end of january.

i want my shit!

i think i'll use part of my tax refund to buy carrying bags.

i really want that soom amber head. skandar will need a friend eventually...
i have no business buying a head considering 2009 was supposed to be my year for fiscal retribution. it was all about getting my finances in proper order. having it all sussed out.

but since i can't seem to make the hard decisions, i'm leaving it all up to fate. i posted a wtb on doa. if no one replies, well then so be it, it wasn't meant to be. if someone does, well then, here we go again.

i gathered all the extra doll things i need to sell for pictures a few days ago, and i realized that i still have my sard's human legs and feet. i will not be needing them at all. but i don't think i can sell them.
i hate feelers, so the question is, do people buy basic parts like that??? there is nothing special about his legs, nor his feet. :P